This one's for you Ragbo...

I can't really describe what I feel right now...
Ragbo was one of the things that made my dad happy
Now he's gone...
You really don't know what you've got till it's gone
and I'm going to really miss him.

I remember when he was a small black puppy
He was the cutest thing I have ever seen in my entire life..
I'll always remember him, because he was like a brother to me.
My dad called him his son with a tail.
I love you Ragbo, Bull, and Dad.

Things are changing

There is nothing really in my power to make it stop
It's hard having to go through this multiple changes and it kills me to see the things I love disappear right in front of my very own eyes.
I wish things were back to the way they used to be, but then I start to realize that maybe this is happening for a reason.
Maybe it's for the best...although it is painful having to go through this..
I just wish...
There were someone that would be there for me when I need them.

I don't even know what to write about
I just want to let you know how grateful I am for meeting someone like you
For some particular reason I can just talk about anything with you, and I feel comfortable doing it.
Thanks for always being there when I need you, and you know you'll always have me to talk to if you ever need anyone.

It's funny because when I first met you, I thought you really didn't want to talk to me or even hang out. I always thought that we could never really get to know each other, but as days pass I get to know you more and more, and realize how much of a great person you are.
Thank you for everything and just remember
Happiness is right around the corner =)

No use living in the past

Yes I've fucked up before
Who hasn't?
I know words aren't enough to heal the pain I caused you
But it pissed me off what you did, and you know well what you did
What you did wasn't to clear things up and not lie, it was out of pure revenge.
And yes I did used you, I'd be a fucking fool to deny that
But I guess we all learned something from it haven't we?
I mean I suppose you got back at me that day you told her the truth.

Now leave me alone
I live with the problems I have with people and rather not make them a big deal since it's in the past.
You're living your life and I'm living mine.
I want you to know I feel like a fucking dog for doing that for you, and I regret it.
But it's to late for that now, I would rather live knowing I've fucked up, rather than living in denial and blaming myself for everything.
If you would have talked to me better, maybe we would have worked things out
But since you talked to me all hostile, I retaliated.
So there you go

Where are you going with your life?

I'm sure many teens (god I hate that word...but I hate the word adolescent even more) ask themselves this question all the time.
Well I do also, and it's something that bothers me all the time.
But thinking about the future isn't going to help us if we don't know what's happening now and try to fix what's in front of you rather than thinking of something that might happen later on.
I've realized that's one of my problems and I'm not living the moment.
I'm tired of that and I'm going to live my life to the fullest.
So fuck the future, I'm gonna seize the day.
Carpe Diem <3

A topic we can all relate to...

Well I was observing people and their relationships
I came to the conclusion that love is very very difficult
There are many ways people express their love for another person
and I guess that's what makes every (or almost every) relationship so special because not everyone shows it the same way.
Of course, every relationship has its up and downs but if you really really love the person I guess they would both try and work things out and not fight, but love =]
Yeah yeah yeah, I know you could be thinking "Jon you're such a fucking homo for writing all this pussy ass shit on your blog omg wtf"
But I don't really care because one day or another love with come your way (if it already hasn't) and then you will be saying "True dat Jon, I feel ya"
Well the point of this blog was to let people know that, yeah relationships can be difficult at times but try not to fight and be happy =]
Well yeeeeeeeah, that's about it...
Peace and Love bitches <3

And another thing...

I'm sick of people being scared of me
I mean should I hide who I truely am because no one can accept me for it?
Fuck, I think I'm a pretty decent guy...
Yes we call commit mistakes, but thats part of being a human being
I've commited many, some that I would love to take back, but it's to late to live in the past and regret everything because all that does is torment you.
There are a few people out there who really know who I am, and some that are getting to know me.
For those of you who don't know me, well then if you ever have the chance come up and talk to me, don't be shy I don't bite.
Yes I may be a bit hostile and serious at times, but that's not all of me, If you ever get the chance to know me you'll find out that I'm much more than I appear to be.
So please,
Don't be scared.

Please tell me what you guys think...=S