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I feel like im losing you...

Pissed the fuck off

God
I have so many reasons why I am pissed the fuck off I don't even want to mention them because even mentioning them pisses me off.
I hate the fact that I'm unable to do anything about it and if I try to it doesn't end up helping at all just making things worst.
But I try and be positive and act as though nothing is wrong when really it burns me up inside.
I hold it in, yes I know that's wrong, but who the hell do I talk too?
My Mom? No I've already tried that and she always says something negative or mixes her emotions into it, which doesn't really make it a piece of advice just an opinion
Friends? Yeah sure...they do help. But sometimes I feel as though I bug them with all my problems and I don't to bother them with that.
Valeria? Yeah I try to, always, but we always change topic or something because we always end up fighting for some reason. I wanna be able to talk things with her without having an interruption or not having confidence in each other. I think we should both have total confidence in each other but sometimes we don't, and that should change.

I really don't know what to do...I think I should just get a shrink...

God I'm so frustrated with how stupid I can be...
Sometimes I do or say things without thinking, and it fucking pisses me off.
I have a very low self-esteem (as most of you already know)
I wanna change that because I HATE to think negativly
I don't know why I ever doubted you
There is no reason why I should doubt you
I know I should trust you when I touch your lips, feel your arms around me, see your smile, look into your eyes that there is no reason in the world I should doubt you.
I hope you can feel the same way about me..

P.S. I love you

I want a girl with lips like morphine, Knock me out every time they touch me. I wanna feel a kiss just crush me, And break me down.

Unexplainable Feelings

OMG
I think I'm the most happiest person in the world at this moment
The smile on my face hasn't gone away since yesterday and it scares me
Yesterday was one of the greatest days ever because I did things I thought I could never do!
I don't regret anything I did and I'm glad it happened
I LOVE THIS FEELING

Don't stop till you get enough

Well these days have been really shitty.
But all that is in the past and I'm starting a new an improved life :D
I'm sick of being depressed and gay all the time (I use that word often so get used to it...)
But today was a good day, I skated, I got my ass wet sliding down the rail in school, I passed all the levels in Camper Strike and my score was 95000, but I was beaten by a Swiss bastard named George...

But here is a video to cheer all you bitches up =)