Wow the title of this blog says it all really, let me explain how...Today began like any normal day, woke up grumpy as always and went to school. I got on the bus and told my friends that I got this trick down called "double kickflip sex change" they were pretty shocked. When I got to school I sat down in my normal spot as I do everyday, right next to the stairs on this wooden bench.
I saw Valeria coming by and that day I decided not to hit her as I do everyday. So she walked by me and didn't say anything (I didn't either and I guess that's really stupid of me but I never seem to greet people when I see them). So when she was going to the bathroom she came up to me and started to talk. I kinda didn't talk back because she started kicking me and stuff like she always does and I didn't want to hit her back because I kinda get tired when people tell me not to hit her because she's a girl and their right.
So I kinda just ignored her and she walked away. Then I thought it was really stupid of me to ignore her and I went to her classroom to go find her. When she got out of her class I started to bother her (which I decided not to do, but its IMPOSSIBLE not to do it because there is no other way we can talk or get close). So when she finally turned around she looked at me and slapped me hard across the face. I got kinda pissed but then I thought "Well that's what I get for messing with her" so I just stood there. She left and I walked to my class to get my bag and go to class.
TOK was interesting because our teacher made us put on blindfolds and walk around the school being guided by one of our classmates. It made me appreciate that I can see and not be blind. (I'm going to skip the entire school day because there is nothing interesting that comes after this.) So school was over and I got home. Bruno, Brian, Andre, and I made a plan going to Caminos Del Inca (also known as The Path Of The Inca lol) but unfortunately it rained today and no one was in the mood for skating. So I was the only one that met up with Andre and decided to go skate.
When I got there Andre was with Marco, and Gino. We decided to go to Andre's house and play Skate. I swear that is one of the coolest video games I have EVER played. We stayed there for a while and went to Caminos. We started to skate around and blah blah when all of a sudden this guy comes out of nowhere and almost hits me. I know this is wrong but I ALWAYS do it because I can't keep my damn mouth shut but I said "Cuidado huevon". He was talking on his phone and stopped the car. He looked at me for like a minute and then hung up his phone and got out of the car. I knew this was going to happen so I got prepared mentally for this stupid discussion that could have been avoided if I just could've kept my mouth shut.
He asked me what I said and that I shouldn't insult him because I was skating in the middle of were cars pass. I know he had a point and I probably would have done the same thing if I were in his position. So I said he could've just gone slower because if he saw us he can't just go full speed towards a person. So in the end I said sorry and he went away. He was trying to be a bigshot because his girl was in the car, but what does he get out of trying to get in a fight with a 16 year old when he is like 40? Whatever so that kinda made me not want to skate as much any more.
Well after all that skating and crap we all decided to go home. We skated towards Andre's house and said our goodbyes (this is were the title comes into play). Andre wanted to lend me Alejandros skateboard (because I didn't bring mine cause I didn't want to damage my grip tape) but I refused because I don't want to be held responsible if something happens to it. So I decided to walk home. I couldn't walk really fast because I have like 3 foot injuries from skating so much so I was limping.
I started to think about what happened today and everything that could have been avoided. I also started to think how everyone is in love, really good at something, and stuff like that. I wondered why can't I find love? Why can't I be good at something? Why does everyone seem to get better and be happy when I'm depressed or sad? Then I thought...why am I so god damn pessimistic? I can't seem to be happy with anything, if something goes wrong I always make up a damn excuse of why it didn't go out the way I planned it to go out.
For example skating. If something goes wrong and I get down a trick I blame it on the skateboard or something, I can't admit that I'm the problem and I'm the one doing something wrong, and I hate that about myself. I can't appreciate what I have and that's were these strange but coincidental things start to happen. I was walking by a church and I see this woman with her son. They stop me and ask me for money for their bus ride because they don't have enough to go back to their house which is in Lurin. I told them that I didn't even have money to go back home and that I walked from Caminos all the way there (which is pretty far). The lady told me get home safe and I went on my way.
I thought to myself "Wow thank god I don't have to ask for money to strangers to go on a bus ride that takes me to my house which is one hour away from here". I started to think I should appreciate what I have and not whine about what I don't have because some people don't have absolutly anything! So once I crossed the street, I got to Benavides. I couldn't get off my mind the guy I got in a discussion with earlier so once I was crossing Benavides this guy kinda like kept moving in a red light. I kinda looked at him like "Uhh I'm crossing?" and he pulled down his window and said sorry that he didn't see me.
I shook my head and told him not to worry about it. Then I started to wonder that not all people are bad. I felt good once that guy forgave himself because it really wasn't a big deal but he did it anyway. It made me wonder that I am such a hot tempered guy and I'm almost never polite (well occasionally, around parents I am). That little thing right there made me want to fix myself and become a better person, I have no idea why lol. Well then I started to walk so more and I got to this park where I could see two dogs. I don't know what dogs do but they have this certain ability to know when someone is depressed or sad. So they came running up to me and started to play around me. I petted them and they jumped around and tried to bit my hand playfully.
That really made my day because I just love animals. I know this might sound weird but I sometimes relate to animals because us humans have so much in common with them that all they need is to talk. They need compassion, love, affection, etc... just like all us humans do. So after that I thought to myself that the world isn't such a bad place and that if you do good things, good things will come to you.
That's my view on life.
And this is probably the longest blog I have written in a while.
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So I kinda just ignored her and she walked away. Then I thought it was really stupid of me to ignore her and I went to her classroom to go find her. When she got out of her class I started to bother her (which I decided not to do, but its IMPOSSIBLE not to do it because there is no other way we can talk or get close). So when she finally turned around she looked at me and slapped me hard across the face. I got kinda pissed but then I thought "Well that's what I get for messing with her" so I just stood there. She left and I walked to my class to get my bag and go to class.
TOK was interesting because our teacher made us put on blindfolds and walk around the school being guided by one of our classmates. It made me appreciate that I can see and not be blind. (I'm going to skip the entire school day because there is nothing interesting that comes after this.) So school was over and I got home. Bruno, Brian, Andre, and I made a plan going to Caminos Del Inca (also known as The Path Of The Inca lol) but unfortunately it rained today and no one was in the mood for skating. So I was the only one that met up with Andre and decided to go skate.
When I got there Andre was with Marco, and Gino. We decided to go to Andre's house and play Skate. I swear that is one of the coolest video games I have EVER played. We stayed there for a while and went to Caminos. We started to skate around and blah blah when all of a sudden this guy comes out of nowhere and almost hits me. I know this is wrong but I ALWAYS do it because I can't keep my damn mouth shut but I said "Cuidado huevon". He was talking on his phone and stopped the car. He looked at me for like a minute and then hung up his phone and got out of the car. I knew this was going to happen so I got prepared mentally for this stupid discussion that could have been avoided if I just could've kept my mouth shut.
He asked me what I said and that I shouldn't insult him because I was skating in the middle of were cars pass. I know he had a point and I probably would have done the same thing if I were in his position. So I said he could've just gone slower because if he saw us he can't just go full speed towards a person. So in the end I said sorry and he went away. He was trying to be a bigshot because his girl was in the car, but what does he get out of trying to get in a fight with a 16 year old when he is like 40? Whatever so that kinda made me not want to skate as much any more.
Well after all that skating and crap we all decided to go home. We skated towards Andre's house and said our goodbyes (this is were the title comes into play). Andre wanted to lend me Alejandros skateboard (because I didn't bring mine cause I didn't want to damage my grip tape) but I refused because I don't want to be held responsible if something happens to it. So I decided to walk home. I couldn't walk really fast because I have like 3 foot injuries from skating so much so I was limping.
I started to think about what happened today and everything that could have been avoided. I also started to think how everyone is in love, really good at something, and stuff like that. I wondered why can't I find love? Why can't I be good at something? Why does everyone seem to get better and be happy when I'm depressed or sad? Then I thought...why am I so god damn pessimistic? I can't seem to be happy with anything, if something goes wrong I always make up a damn excuse of why it didn't go out the way I planned it to go out.
For example skating. If something goes wrong and I get down a trick I blame it on the skateboard or something, I can't admit that I'm the problem and I'm the one doing something wrong, and I hate that about myself. I can't appreciate what I have and that's were these strange but coincidental things start to happen. I was walking by a church and I see this woman with her son. They stop me and ask me for money for their bus ride because they don't have enough to go back to their house which is in Lurin. I told them that I didn't even have money to go back home and that I walked from Caminos all the way there (which is pretty far). The lady told me get home safe and I went on my way.
I thought to myself "Wow thank god I don't have to ask for money to strangers to go on a bus ride that takes me to my house which is one hour away from here". I started to think I should appreciate what I have and not whine about what I don't have because some people don't have absolutly anything! So once I crossed the street, I got to Benavides. I couldn't get off my mind the guy I got in a discussion with earlier so once I was crossing Benavides this guy kinda like kept moving in a red light. I kinda looked at him like "Uhh I'm crossing?" and he pulled down his window and said sorry that he didn't see me.
I shook my head and told him not to worry about it. Then I started to wonder that not all people are bad. I felt good once that guy forgave himself because it really wasn't a big deal but he did it anyway. It made me wonder that I am such a hot tempered guy and I'm almost never polite (well occasionally, around parents I am). That little thing right there made me want to fix myself and become a better person, I have no idea why lol. Well then I started to walk so more and I got to this park where I could see two dogs. I don't know what dogs do but they have this certain ability to know when someone is depressed or sad. So they came running up to me and started to play around me. I petted them and they jumped around and tried to bit my hand playfully.
That really made my day because I just love animals. I know this might sound weird but I sometimes relate to animals because us humans have so much in common with them that all they need is to talk. They need compassion, love, affection, etc... just like all us humans do. So after that I thought to myself that the world isn't such a bad place and that if you do good things, good things will come to you.
That's my view on life.
And this is probably the longest blog I have written in a while.
=]
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